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I'm feeling bad, so unfilial so hopeless..!! I jus got the news from my sis that my grandpa jus passed away...And wat am i doing in WUHAN here...Shldn't i be at least seeing off his funeral now? He passed away on last thus, my family members were in China on fri...And i was still enjoying my own life during that time...Wat am i doin? Scold me pls!! My mum called back China on the thus during 4pm and my grandpa was still fine tat time, but everything is so sudden, he passed away at 10pm..My grandpa was calling my sis name b4 he was dying and even mistaken my aunt daughter as her...He jus wanna take a look at his granddaughter but he had no more chance..He say my mum was lying to him becos my mum promise my grandpa that my sis will go back China and see him...But he left with regret...I guess my mum is feeling damn bad now...(even tough my sis say she was ok now)..And even my dad and bro cried when they got the news... After so many days, my sis den told me...And it too late to go back and see him now..Becos he's buried le.....I onli got the news today!! Today!!! My mum once ask me whether can i be able to leave from this immersion programme if anything was to happen to my grandpa..I say CANNOT!! CANNOT!!...Why i say tat...I never even ask my teacher and i say cannot jus becos i tot tis thing wun happen...And even tough my mum noe he's feeling worse b4 the time i comin to WUHAN, she didn't tell me...She dun wan me to worried...!! My dad want me to called back everyday after i reach here, but till now i didn't jus becos i feel it useless to call back!! I So angry wif myself now!! Tday exam can't even do well, family r/s oso cannot maintain well...SO USELESS......... Yan how? how? |
