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Last sat, my mum keep ask me, "why ruiyan din come our hse lately, u and her quarrel issit". I have no choice but to tell her "ya", and we break le. She ask me why we break, did i went to find her? I jus keep quiet and tell her dun ask me abt it le. Then she told me, "拿得起，要放得下", she told me not to tink abt it anymore and get over it quickly. What i do was jus remain silent..Cos saying something is easier den doin it..And i was abit angry with her, becos the moment i told her abt the incident, when i reach home, my sis noe le.. Ytd nite, she came into the room, she tok to me again.. But tis time she tok in a more stern manner. She say "你不要在给我想了，已经是过去了，现在读书重要". I noe she care for me cos lately i hav nt been taking care of myself.. Everyday i came home, i jus throw myself in the room using com or wat..And my family was all in the living room.. I hav no mood to do anyting, i jus wish to be alone..I dun even care whether i'm hungry anot..If nt for my bro who owae ask me wanna eat, he's cooking, i tink i dun even will go to the kitchen and cook something to eat.. But right now, nth is impt to me.. Everytime when i'm alone, i will miss her, each time i see her pic in my hp i will ask myself y u are nt beside me now..I hate myself, i reali hate...Everyday i'm tinking of sms her, but i jus dun dare, i dun wish to make her tink i'm pestering her..She happy now, and i dun wish destroy it.. |
